Super Bowl...

We went up to my Grandparents or Great Grandparents to the kids, to watch the Super Bowl like we did when we were young and teenagers. We love the snack food and having family around. When we were younger, we would go to the basement and watch tv or play Nintendo.

She won't crawl, but maybe walk? Love my Miss Sunshine.

Me and my Alisha.

My true love and me.

Autumn said no taking pictures of her so I had to be sneaky...hehehe

Me and my sweetie.

Taisha was soooo into the game.

McKenna wasn't.

Austin played games and DS with the boys.

The family watching and enjoying time together.

Jared and Miss Sunshine.

Uncle Jay Poll had us come downstairs and sing karoke. He kept saying Alisha had talent. :)

Chris, Skyler, Tyler, Austin, Auctober and Jared playing games.

Sillies.

Our sleeping Miss Sunshine with McKenna and Taisha.

Now sing....

Auctober loved to dance while we sang.

Pigging out!

Grandpa Lamb in the background watching the vultures eat.

Great Grandma Lamb had so much fun with Aunya. 

This was an amazing night. We all laughed and had fun. They laughed especially at me when I tried to sing because my voice is so bad with the bad vocal chord :( I took it well and just had fun anyways.

My Grandpa talked to me a lot about how I felt and how he felt. We are both scared of the pacemaker/defibrulator and of what is real and not. Having someone to share with was wonderful. He has had many heart attacks and has the most stints in you can have, that is why they chose the ICD for him. I sure do love him. He has always been the one who comforts me when I was sad. He may not be my blood gpa, but he IS my gpa forever.

ICD info...

 

 This is the card I have to have on myself at all times. It tells what model of ICD I have in case of emergency and so I don't have to go through the metal detectors anywhere that have them. I thought it would be good to have a copy of it in case I lose it and something happens.

 

I have no phone line, so I visit my mother in law to do my readings.

This reads my stored information on my ICD and downloads it to Dr. Wang so he can check and see if everything is alright. The only thing I don't like is how load it's beeps.

It takes a little while, but I don't mind. I am supposed to do it every night when I go to bed, but since I have had no incidents and my heart is healing, they aren't so worried.

I have to say that technology today is pretty amazing. I have a box in my chest that will pace my heart if needed and jump start it if it stops again. I really hope I don't have to be conscious if that happens again.

re•sus•ci•ta•tion

re·sus·ci·tate  re·sus·ci·tat·ed, re·sus·ci·tat·ing : To restore consciousness, vigor, or life to.

We tend to think of resuscitation has bringing back a person from the brink of death.

It also means to restore vigor and life to.

We all can all do this after suffering from a tragedy or depression.

 

I am still working on the after resuscitation after the reviving of my life.

 

I don't understand why I feel lost and like an empty shell, like something is missing.

 

But I will not give up on me.

Life is a gift...learn to enjoy it!

Carrie Underwood - Lessons Learned

This is how I feel about my actions of late.

 I don't regret being honest and sticking up for myself, but I have made mistakes too. 

I have grown stronger and will not look back only forward.

If you can't get over whatever problems you have with me, that is your problem. 

After I got home, I got sick of all the sh*&!

Life is precious and we waste it bickering, being competitive and back stabbing. Mostly not feeling good about ourselves and taking it out on someone else and pointing out their flaws.

I may have more to say now, because I KNOW what you don't. 

Don't die with regrets.