The start of Mother's Day weekend...

Auctober slept over Friday night.

Taisha and I decided to take her for a walk.

Taisha got out her doll stroller.

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She pulled this face.

I guess she didn't like it.

LOL

Then we went up to Grandma Lamb's

for a Mother Day celebration.

Austin and Autumn were happy to be reunited 

with there baby.

Danny and Marcelle stuffing her face.

She actually put it down and didn't take a bite.

We were excited that Jared was out of the hospital.

His diabetes has been a challenge.

James. Always a ham.

He doesn't act like he is going to be a grandpa.

He acts like a child still.

 On the way home, 

I saw the horses on the corner and took some pictures.

This is the leaning fence on the corner.

It looks like spring and for the first time in weeks...

felt like spring. I enjoyed my walk.

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Skyler was getting ready to do the Boy Scout dinner...

They wait and prepare a spaghetti meal for $25 a family

so they can earn money for their week at Lake Powell.

Taisha and Danny are so brave!

 See ya later alligator.

I wish I could have gotten pictures of my wonderful mom and grandma.

We were rushed to get home for Skyler's dinner and

we got to Sandy late due to traffic for the Real game.

My Song of the day...

"Leave Out All The Rest"

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shed but I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

by LINKIN PARK


This song is a little mixed up for me. My cousin Tyrell took his life a year and half ago. This song came on the radio as I was sitting thinking about him and I realized that this is what he would say. Then my sister sent me an email telling me to listen to THIS song because it reminded her of Tyrell.
So...
I feel this is his song, but it is everybody's song. We all want to be remembered for the good and positive things we do, not the bad.

I wish I had been a better cousin...
I love him so much and wish I could have been there for him.

Last Hope of America...

The Granny Dancers.

She is 92!!

Will I be that cool at 92?

I am not that cool at __!

Didn't think I was going to tell you did you?

The bells at BYU informed us it was 9:00 P.M.

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McKenna, Danny and I went to see Alisha in the Hope Of America.

I have always enjoyed the program and am sad this was my last year.

My kids keep getting older.

WHY?!?!?!?

Alisha was so excited and we had a good time.

 

Anxiety, my enemy...

"Anxiety"

I feel like I wanna smack somebody
Turn around and slap somebody
But I ain't goin' out bro (no, no, no)
I ain't givin' into it (no, no, no)
Anxieties bash my mind in
Terrorizing my soul like Bin Laden
But I ain't fallin' down bro (no, no, no)
I won't lose control bro (no, no, no)
Shackle and chained
My soul feels stained
I can't explain got an itch on my brain
Lately my whole aim is to maintain
And regain control of my mainframe
My bloods boiling its beatin' out propane
My train of thoughts more like a runaway train
I'm in a fast car drivin' in a fast lane
In the rain and I'm might just hydroplane

I don't fear none of my enemies
And I don't fear bullets from Uzi's
I've been dealing with something that's worse than these
That'll make you fall to your knees and that's the
The anxiety the sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoia's brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety
The sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoia's brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety

My head keeps running away my brother
The only thing making me stay my brother
But I won't give into it bro (no, no, no)
Gotta get myself back now
God, I can't let my mind be
Tell my enemy is my own
Gots to find my inner wealth
Gots to hold up my thoughts
I can't get caught (no, no, no)
I can't give into it now (no, no, no)
Emotions are trapped set on lock
Got my brain stuck goin through the motions
Only I know what's up
I'm filled up with pain
Tryin' to gain my sanity
Everywhere I turn its a dead end in front of me
With nowhere to go gotta shake this anxiety
Got me feelin' strange paranoia took over me
And its weighin' me down
And I can't run any longer, yo
Knees to the ground

I don't fear none of my enemies
And I don't fear bullets from Uzi's
I've been dealing with something that's worse than these
That'll make you fall to your knees and that's the
The anxiety the sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoia's brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety
The sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoia's brought me to my knees
Lord please please please

Take away my anxiety

by Black Eyed Peas



Maybe I should not share such deep stuff.
Everyone is probably wanting to run from me right now.
I just thought if I shared my...
craziness,
maybe someone else out there may be going through this
and I could help them.
I was all alone when it happened to me.
I have NEVER felt so alone.
Except...
for the light and warmth
Heavenly Father would send to me.