Magical Hearts...

Before the incident, i was going to blog about this paper heart I found in the driveway. Must have been a message for me.

To be honest, I am blessed with not knowing what happened May 12, 2012.

I know I almost DIED.

And it took 1and a half hours to bring me back.My mouth is blue because they had to see if I could swallow. I have some vocal paralization.

 My boy.

 Chris and my brothers visiting me.

Do you know where you are?....Yes, the wrong hospital for our insurance.
Do you know what happened? ...No.
Do you remember what we were doing that day?...No
I was in shock. I died. Why was I alive?
Then It got worse...

We were taking McKenna and her friends on their pre morp date.
I am so embarrassed that I ruined the date.

I also missed McKenna's sweet 16 and the party I planned.
Mother's Day too.

Coma makes you puffy They had to cut off my rings:(

 Why am I so swollen and bruised?

My hero!

Coma makes you puffy They had to cut off my rings:(

So heart stopped...seizures...coma...surgery to have a defibrillator put in...brought out of coma to have two strokes.

 Then wonder why I am still alive.

I also had to have fluid around my lungs drained. A loooong needle went into my back between my ribs...ouch.

 Flowers from the Gudmundson's

E.T. E.T.

My mom was in shock and Danny and my father weren't doing to well.

 very preggy Autumn.

 I LOST OVER 20 POUNDS!

GOING HOME!!!
I have no idea how to thank all the people who helped me and my family. I had the best therapists, nurses, Dr's, ward, work familyand family and friends to support me. 

You sure learn who your true friends are at times like these.

Danny was so amazing and took such good care of me. I am so lucky!

I love you mom...

Thank you mom for taking care of me at the hospital and happy late Mother's Day! I love you so much!

A Mother...

Super MOM...

Then they grow up and point out the ways you have failed. 

That's okay...

It helps you to want to keep trying to be better.

A Sweet Surprise...

Look what my husband and kids sent me at work.

They are so pretty and smell so good!

Thank you and I love you all!

Motherhood...

I can always find a way to forgive someone else, 

but can't seem to let go of my faults and forgive myself. 

Maybe someday...

Growing up and up...

 For the last few years, I have been growing my garden from seeds. I have had a lot of luck so far, but always know that transplanting them into the sandy soil I have here has 50/50 odds of surviving.

 This year I am growing green beans, watermelon(my first time trying), squash, white pumpkins, carving  pumpkins, jalapenos, green peppers, lettuce, rhubarb, Swiss chard for Danny, Cilantro and a lot of other flowers.

 My lovely weeds in my lawn.

 The ivy that I never planted but is all over my yard the last few years.

The mound coming alive.

Sunshine just planted(African Daisies). I bought these at the store.

My favorite...Candy tuft. It brings such joy in the spring with the white flowers, but is also pretty all summer with its green pretty color. I wish the flowers would stay through summer and fall though.

The evening sun.

Growing things is very therapeutic for me. It brings me such joy, even pulling weeds, to be outside.

I find it is a good stress reliever.

Supermoon....

So...Have I mentioned that I love the moon?

 I find peace and comfort with the moon.

 So today was the Supermoon-When the moon is closest to the earth causing it to be bigger and brighter. I stood in the freezing wind to take pictures. I called this a date for Danny and I.

 Danny put a sleeping bag on me. He is so good to me.